I'm still searching for a job. I'm subbing again, though it's neither dependable or ultimately desirable. By default, the nature of the employment I've been seeking is temporary, and it means that I'll be searching once again after the current assignment is over. Rinse and repeat ad infinitum. I'm so ready for things to not be so temporary in many aspects of my life. Housing, the employment situation... even relationships if I meet the right person.
I've been trying to get some health concerns under control, and it's been expensive and hasn't led me very far. Part of this is due to the fact that I went to a low-cost health clinic where no one is an endocrinologist looking to find a viable treatment. I'm within the normal range of test results, even though I'm still experiencing symptoms, so they're done with me. It sucks to not be taken seriously... and not feel like a health care provider is being an advocate for you. I also have some concerns about several 'moles'... though I was told by a dermatologist that they would cost $200-300 each to remove. Yikes!
I've been exercising and eating better, but I'm not showing too much progress scale-wise. I'm 'rearranging' things though, as my mom says -- apparently I'm not jiggling as much when we walk the dogs. (Yay, for those squats in Zumba!) She had told me a few months ago that I'd look good if I could get lipo on my thighs... and you wonder why I have a complex about this stuff.... *rolls eyes*
I'm not "giving in" to any of these issues, but it seems like the old adage of "the more things change, the more they stay the same" is more true than I'd like to admit. Trying to change said things is infinitely exhausting when everything is an uphill battle. I'm so tired of spinning my wheels.
To end this on a positive note, I've joined a band. I know that to any normal adult, that's pretty much like saying, "I joined the circus," but I'm excited about the prospects it may bring. We don't have a name yet, and we're still wanting to get some practice sessions under our belts before we gig, but the guys have a decent amount of experience... and they happened to want me, someone with only some stage and karaoke experience, which was amazing. :D
Lately, I haven't been able to ignore the power that my voice has... a power I'm still just learning to be confident enough to use. I've mesmerized crowds recently with Mariah, Whitney, that one Sinead O'Connor song, and U2's 'With or Without You.' It's pretty amazing and I'm always humbled when I can tell I've struck a chord with the audience. If it's the one thing that I have going for me right now, I'm just going to run with it. :)
