steady as she goes

the title reflects the fact that although i haven't lost much weight, there are massive changes going on/in my body. i think that if i step up the cardio, i'll be able to lose weight, but for right now, i'm working on eating healthier and gaining muscle.
i was so tired today that my arms didn't get much of a workout. i'm going to be carrying so much crapola around, trying to prepare for the carpet guys to install new carpet everywhere in the house that i probably need to muster as much strength as i can get... :)
in more positive news though, i caught my derriere in the mirror the day after i worked my legs and glutes and i thought, "hmmmm, looking good!" so terrible but true. and apparently i'm carrying myself differently because people (well, guys) are looking at me too.... like, "looking at me" looking at me... weird. not used to that but it's something i may get more of if i'm losing weight.
i've been weight training three days a week. and until today, when i was out and about without a packed lunch, i had only had one instance of getting fast food within the past two weeks. yay! also, since beginning work at drc, i eat oatmeal every day, along with yogurt and apples. for my drink, instead of super-sugary coffee or hot chocolate, i drink celestial seasonings vanilla maple decaf tea with a little bit of sugar. thinking of switching to caffeinated tea though, since i need a little after staring at the computer all day! :)

CW: 190.0

i want

i want:

• to impress my family, who haven't had much faith in me in the past.
• to impress my relatives during thanksgiving and christmas visits.
• to look hot during my vacation to vegas in the spring.
• to be more energetic, so i can get things done like i used to do.
• to be more confident, so i can do my very best during interviews at schools.
• to be active, just because.
• to fit into a more healthy size of clothing, whatever size that may be for me.
• to do this for me, last but not least. :)
  

yep. that about sums it up.

fluctuations

i'm probably going to take the advice of one of the guys at gold's, in that i shouldn't take too much stock in the scale. yesterday morning i weighed 193 and today i weighed 190.8, which seems to be the number i keep going back to.
i told jenny about joining the gym and she seemed really excited for me. she would like to go but mostly just to tone up. she got excited when i told her about the cardio theater, where they show movies on a huge screen in a darkened room. it would be really nice to have a workout buddy, and we figured that if we biked or walked during a whole movie, we'd burn tons of calories while doing something we'd probably do anyway.
i'm happy to see that after only a week, i can see some changes starting in my body. my quads are hard as rocks like they were when i was dancing. i feel like i'm gaining my muscles back, so hopefully i'm gaining enough muscle to burn off the fat. i feel like it's starting and i'm really pumped. :)

CW: 190.8

sight for sore eyes

well, technically, my eyes are probably the only body part that isn't sore in my body. i've been to the gym five times in the past week. my quads burn each time i try to walk and my abs and arms just feels so tight. it's going to take a couple weeks for me to not feel so sore. i know this. i think i just haven't had the willpower to get through that point on my own before. this time though, it has to be done. i'm kind of thinking that the weight loss that i definitely feel like i can acheive will kind of be a christmas present, not only to myself, but to those around me that want to see me happy and healthy. it's kind of exciting, really. :)

CW: 193 but it's just my body freaking out that i'm working out... and maybe some new muscle weight? :)

queso grande

so i did go overboard a bit yesterday at don pablos. after i OD-ed on chips and cheese though, i only ate a couple bites of my meal, which i just ate today for lunch. as a result, i'm up a pound or so. i've been exercising and drinking a lot of water. i feel like i might be gaining muscle back already though, too. maybe this is the reason that when i exercise and try to be fit, i end up gaining weight. it's frustrating but i know i'm on the right track. i have a nutritional consultation later this afternoon, so maybe i can talk about some of this stuff then.
also, i tried on these pants a few days ago at old navy and i liked them. they're a bit long, since my inseam is only about 30" and they only sell "short" on their website, but they looked good and i need more dress pants. anyway, i tried them on last night and they looked really good! i don't know if it was the working out this weekend or what but my derriere just looked awesome. yay! :)

CW: 190.8
M: 42-35-46.5

gym time

i signed up for gold's gym on saturday. i received a call from the gym after i signed up for a sweepstakes when my mom and i went to the original pancake house last sunday for brunch. i decided that i would really like to go for a consultation and the guy that i was supposed to meet with, ty, seemed really nice, like he was on my side. i was nervous about the fees involved, but since we discussed the rates after the consultation and fitness evaluation stuff, we figured out a plan that would work.
i'm so excited to start working out! i really feel like ty "got me" after talking to me for a short time and he knows how much i want it, so it's so encouraging.
during the consultation, i worked out on a treadclimber for the first time and i liked it a lot. ty also showed me some resistance training equipment which i feel pretty confident about. the gym also has a pool, a cardio theatre, and some fun-sounding classes that are available.

CW: same as before? i haven't weighed myself in a few days and i like to weigh myself in the morning... :)

not so bad

so i figured that i had really put on some weight recently, what with the not really giving a damn what i eat and not walking while my parents were on vacation. the reality is that i actually lost some weight, what with the sweating my tookus off at kings island for the haunt and sustaining myself on kool-aid, energy drinks and odwalla bars during that time. yay!.... i think. :)

CW yesterday: 192.4
CW today: 191.4